oh..its been a while this blog has been abandon.....its been busy...busy for wedding preparation, busy for the actual wedding, busy for honeymoon, busy for new job and now busy because im pregnant!

Unbelievable...it's doesn't look like me thou...i just cant believe that im pregnant....I recalled the day when i notice that i have the symptom of pregnancy...It was few days later i came back from honeymoon, my friend requested me to send her to clinic as she is not feeling well...

Well, who knows that after sending her, i return to my home...i start to feel uncomfortable...i was blaming mt friend because of sending her to see doctor and now im sick...hahaha...hilarious! The next day morning, i feel dizzy and with no appetites..i dont remember what drive me to purchase the pregnancy test...but i remember i have make a big courage to test for it....

The moment when i saw the test was positive, i almost fainted...i cry and cant believe that it happen so swiftly...i tell my hubby..and he question me back, why should i feel upset and cry as we were married..what's wrong if im pregnant....

Yes, there is nothing wrong..but the thing is that it happen too sudden...i cant believe that im the person who dont like kids will get pregnant so soon..i thought getting pregnant is not easy..how come its suddenly become so simple and easy??

The immediate afternoon, my hubby and i went to the nearest clinic to double confirm on my pregnancy..well, the doctor said congratulation, you are pregnant..but are you thinking of keeping the baby? I was surprise...is out there a lot of people would like to abort their baby? I dont like kids...but i do not know how to answer this because i have no right to abort her but i at the same time, i have not accept this.....

Few days passed...and i start to think, rethink, and calming myself down and keep on telling myself this is a good news not the bad one...and im becoming mother soon...and this is a fact...

And now, i accepted it. Im pregnant and im going to deliver the baby next year and i have to take good care of myself... I cant deny that every of my family member they are happy with this new little member..my sister even bought her a shirt...my god..the shirt is so small....

Every morning, wake up with dizzy mind..drinking the healties drink and having the balance diet..thanks to my hubby...if not because im pregnant..i would not know he actually knows how to do most of the housework....im the queen now...he does most of the thing..and i just sleep and eat...sleep and eat..only at this moment, i know...my hubby knows how to do most of the housework...thank god...

This kind of life have to carry out for 9 months..9 months!!!! tiring..........

finally...almost there...i got it...you know what is the most important thing during the wedding preparation??

It's CASH FLOW...no money no proceeding...

what you can't do when you have no money during the wedding preparation?
1. no booking for the restaurant / fine dining for your wedding dinner
2. no booking for catering
3. no pre wedding photo shooting
4. no wedding card invitation can be made
5. no buying for wedding stuff
6. no flowers and decoration can be made
7. no videographer, no photographer
8. no manicure, pedicure, spa, and dadada...
9. no nice bedsheet, bed spread and furniture
10. no refurbishment for your room or house

n basically, NOTHING can be done without money...

Who are your big FAN in your wedding planning?
1. father mother and sister
2. friends

FRIENDS are important throughout this process...becoz they look pretty excited for the wedding and some seems like she is getting married rather than you...so, they are playing important ROLE...

Who is the BIGGEST investor?
of course MY HUSBAND...

When is my most enjoyable time during the planning?
1. The time when we take pre wedding photos!!!

有個男人已經超厭煩他每天都要去公司上班，但他老婆卻可以成天待在家裡於是，他向上帝禱告說:「親愛的主，我每天上班投入八個鐘頭的時間，但我的老婆只待在家裡，閒閒没事做，我希望讓她知道我過的是怎麼樣的日子，所以請讓我們的身體交換! 」上帝以祂無比的智慧，成就了這個男人的願望，隔天，這男人一起床就成了個女人.他一起床，就開始為他的伴侶作早點，再三去叫醒那些賴床的孩子們，在回家路上，還要去洗衣店收送衣服，還要到銀行存錢，到菜市場買菜，然後回家把菜放一邊，還要仔細記帳.記完帳之後，他清了貓的砂盒，後來還替狗洗澡...然後時間已經下午一點鐘了，他趕快把棉被折好，洗衣服，擦地板…餵完貓狗，他衝到學校去接小孩，然後還得和那些越來越沒大沒小的孩子們一路上大小聲，回家之後，他幫孩子準備點心和牛奶，讓孩子乖乖地寫功課，然後他把燙馬擺好，一邊燙衣服一邊看肥皂劇重播，下午四點半，他開始削馬鈴薯，洗菜作沙拉烤肉餅，為晚餐做準備.晚餐後，那個死不要臉的老婆，剛下班一吃完飯，然坐在客廳看起足球賽來!他則忙著整理廚房洗碗，把收好的衣服摺好，哄小孩睡覺，晚上九點，他已經累壞了,但是又擔心白天的雜務還很多沒作完................. 不管了，他終於衝上床想休息了，但是這時那個閒得發慌的老婆, 竟然還興致勃勃提議要「嘿咻嘿咻」，他心不甘情不願，但還是努力裝得很愉快，設法不要抱怨，隔天他一起床, 立刻靠著床邊跪下來，流淚跟上帝說:「主啊! 我不知道我之前在想什麼，現在我知道我實在錯得離譜，竟錯到去妒嫉我老婆整天在家求求您，讓我們換回來吧! 」主以祂無比的智慧，回答他: 「孩子，我很高興知道你已學到了智慧，而且，我也很願意把你們兩人換回來，但....你還要等二百七十九天，因為...「昨天晚上, 你懷孕了!」

Phew...it has been a week after the charity drive...The event was not that great that i though of.. but i have enjoyed the trip very much with my dearest hubby, Aice and Chris, our awesome photographer! Because of him, we got lotz of nice photos and i believe all these nice photo can turn into an album...haha..

Throughout the journey, the moment that i have to put it down is the moment when we have our dinner at Ipoh, chicken rice shop..im afraid that i will forget the feeling when i saw this incident..so, i want to write it down to remind myself and my fellow friends...

Beggar can be every where, begging for money...pretend they are mute, blind..some slightly better, they come with tissue and sell it to you at a higher price.. and this old man that we saw, he is different.. he might need to beg because he need money, food for his family..i dont know..and i will never know...

The restaurant was full of customer, when the table of people almost finish eating, new arrival customer immediate stand beside awaiting the people at the table to leave...we are the same too..we waited, finally, this table of people stand up and leave the restaurant..there are so many left over food on the table..it's so wasteful...before the waiter comes and clean the table, this old man come with a walking stick and the other hand with a pack of rice, come to the table and put all the left over food into his pack of rice..

I'm stunt..i dont know what to do and what to say.. i feel that my brain is asking me to invite him to eat, but my mouth just cant be control..in a sudden i feel that there are so contrast going on in the head..ask him to eat with us? say thank you to the customer who left the old man plenty of food?

At the end, i'm doing nothing. No action was taken...and i tell myself..im so fortunate that i have food everyday..and i can have buffet whenever...and from now on...do not waste food!

Suppose there shall be no photograph shooting for the wedding gown fitting..but then i have this little naughty friend who is excellent in socialize help me to get a chance to fit on this fabulous gown..Thanks, my dear!

Here i am with this beautiful gown..hm..really miss this gown..unfortunately, they want me to pay for 1k if i want to do photo shooting with this gown..as if the gown is the main character in the wedding..haha...but never mind..now i have this photo for memory...

Thanks for all my fellow friends..thanks for being helpful...of course they seem like really happy to help me..as if they are getting married at the same time..i hope after my wedding, i have a chance to help my other friends to prepare a wedding...okie?? make it fast..please..im too excited to offer my hand...

wow..im so so tired..working in the office dy so tired..come back home, saturday, sunday still need to look for wedding venue, wedding photography..wedding preparation..planning ..da da da da..so many things to do..luckily darling always with me...but till now no firm decision made..dunno where to have our wedding dinner, what kind of wedding we wanted? whats the wedding theme..what kind of invitation card,where to take wedding photo...hell!!!nothing done and hard to confirm...the reason behind is WE HAVE NOT MARRIED BEFORE! i think if i get married the next time i shall easily organise...phew..i think is the time to call out my dear ji mui to give a hand...

tired....but feel really great! have to keep myself cheerful everyday..haha...

To my dearest Friends...
Happy New Year...We hope for the best for this new year..2010 bringing us blissful year and prosperity....And of course..thanks to my darling..happy new year...thank you for the wonderful flowers and ring..to everyone...Im getting married this year...dont ask me when i will get married ..this time let me tell you when im going to get married..its this year , year 2010...


8 years back on this day, we started our relationship as a couple...thanks to all our friends being so caring about both of us...thank you so much...3 years back, we were engaged and registered as an legal husband and wife..this is stupid isnt it?everytime i recall this day, i will laugh at myself...we were too naive on that time..and today you did what you have promised..eventhou the propose is not the best but thank you, it is a successful one..and is awesome..darling..

To my dear,
thank you for being considerate and caring for me at all time..
thank you for being waiting patiently while im in Australia..
thank you for taking care of me and my family so well..we love you..
thank you for everything and every moment that you share with me..
dear, is too many...within this 8 years, we have shared too much..we have our dreams..to own a house..to own the car that we both love..to travel together...and many many more..
eventhou we quarrel some times..but is okie..because quarreling means we still care for each other...
and lastly dear,
thank you for loving me...
i love you too..

I dont really know what's going on recently..feel happy and enjoy..but actually i got many things that i need to do and is rush too...Thursday night i was rushing for printing for the submission on Monday but still i feel enjoy doing it...eventhou i dunno exactly what am i suppose to do for the submission..and i never believe that i can do it by my own..and within these 2 weeks..i get ready documents for submission, complete submission drawings...oh my god..i can do it..i really can do it...

My parents house is almost ready to move in...unfortunately..and fortunately i think we cannot go further for interior design due to the budget constrain..my sister ngi ngi ngam ngam...haih..i suppose to feel upset and tired and dissapointted..but i did not...i think im getting more mature in handling problems..if 1 year ago..i think i will be very frustrated..angry and feel stress..but i did not cause i know budget problem can be solve..maybe it will take few months to clear the debt..i know we can do it coz we live as a family, we solve problem not i solve problem n not you the only one who solve problem...

Today i have a great lunch with my dear classmate...wonderful classmates...im really glad to have you guys...

and today! Im very happy..no reason...i want to be happy, every day..every minute..coz smiling chase away all the unhappy stuff.

I been working for almost two months...but i killed 2 cockroaches...feel so cruel..but what can i do? he is blocking me...and im scared..so,i killed him with insect repellent.. yes, i killed it but then i feel bad too... the only thing i can do is to say im sorry...