I dont really know what's going on recently..feel happy and enjoy..but actually i got many things that i need to do and is rush too...Thursday night i was rushing for printing for the submission on Monday but still i feel enjoy doing it...eventhou i dunno exactly what am i suppose to do for the submission..and i never believe that i can do it by my own..and within these 2 weeks..i get ready documents for submission, complete submission drawings...oh my god..i can do it..i really can do it...

My parents house is almost ready to move in...unfortunately..and fortunately i think we cannot go further for interior design due to the budget constrain..my sister ngi ngi ngam ngam...haih..i suppose to feel upset and tired and dissapointted..but i did not...i think im getting more mature in handling problems..if 1 year ago..i think i will be very frustrated..angry and feel stress..but i did not cause i know budget problem can be solve..maybe it will take few months to clear the debt..i know we can do it coz we live as a family, we solve problem not i solve problem n not you the only one who solve problem...

Today i have a great lunch with my dear classmate...wonderful classmates...im really glad to have you guys...

and today! Im very happy..no reason...i want to be happy, every day..every minute..coz smiling chase away all the unhappy stuff.

I been working for almost two months...but i killed 2 cockroaches...feel so cruel..but what can i do? he is blocking me...and im scared..so,i killed him with insect repellent.. yes, i killed it but then i feel bad too... the only thing i can do is to say im sorry...

I started with my gloomy day in the early morning...perhaps the traffic jam yesterday made me frustrated and hate to drive..or maybe im just not feeling well recently..sometimes sunny in the morning and in a sudden it rains cat and dog...the weather is unpredictable..sigh...

I was so angry when i drove back yesterday..i hate the traffic light..there wasn't any jam when the traffic light is not working...after repairing this traffic light, it causes about 500m jam from mint hotel to serdang raya.. What make me even more angry was the driver who cut queue..as if they are the only one who are rushing back home...such stupid and selfish..everyone is rushing..everyone wants to get back home fast too...just because of all these selfish driver make everyone stuck in the jam..i wanted to call the traffic police, i wanted to get down from the car and scold them...but what can i do? nothing...helpless...

Towards Bukit Jalil traffic light there are one traffic light at the end of the slope...people rush for work, cutting queue and resulting the queue gets even longer...this morning something amazing happens...haha...this idiot driver get caught by the traffic police once she cut queue in front of me...i was so so so happy...i wanted to horn her when she cuts queue..but i did not because i know one day she will get caught and it happens immediately...i would like to shout at her and say U Deserve It!!!

One of my friend told me, she said if you drive politely in KL, you will not reach your destiny on time..i hope she is wrong.... if you get caught or any accident happens, it will definitely slow you down much more...

This is what i wanted to say, please dont drive like uncivilized human!

What is happening...i don't know....
All i knew is that someone i love lie to me...
She breaks my heart..deeply...i feel very disappointed..
How many time of chances you want me to offer you??
You told me you did this because you have no way to choose..
you are alone and need someone..i tell you we are all stand by you...
you said is different..i doubt..
so i promise to you that i would let you to prove the one you choose is the right man..
and i keep my mouth shut...

One year pass..
I see you again..but this time you look different...
you look so much tired...something that i really don't hope to see..
i remember i asked you when i first saw you...
How are you? Did you live happily throughout this year?
you pretend to be happy and satisfied with the life..i know you are lying..
because i know you for so long...long long time as if when i newly brought to this world..
and so do i..i pretend to believe in you..but my tears drop when i go to bed that night...

I know what i can do is accompany you whenever you are lonely..
Eventhough i said i cannot accept him..and you know i dont like him too...
so we were happy when we are enjoying our family outing without him...
for this few months...at least we are happy...

Until one day..my dream come true...
you quarrel with him...i was so so so happy...
finally you are leaving him..i pray with my sincere heart..
at that very fine morning..you said you want to move out from the house immediately..
because you both no longer can live together..
i drive from far far land back to your house..
we move everything..
Everything that previously in my house..
We sweat sweat sweat but we were happy happy happy..
Happy simply because you are back...

Yes, im always the luckiest person...in my heart..
but not this time...
I was so naive..and so innocent...
thinking that you will be with us...
You told me, you will not return to him...you promise this to me..
you promise this..i remember the last word you said to me...
I believe in you because i love you...

But why??????
Is just one day????why cant you leave him alone?
Why did you want to return to him?? He dont love you any more...
He is devil..a true devil...took you away from where you are..
Somewhere that you are being pampered so much...
they tell me...you are lying...
i said no...you wont do this to me..you wont lie...

That night...i decided to take a drive just to see whether they are lying...
or you are the one who lie to me...

I cant believe what i see...
How could this happen?
why are you here?? Why are you in his house??
I just cant control my anger...
I want to go into the house and ask you what is going on...

But......
I did not...because i dont want you to know that i knew you lie to me...
I pretend i dont know anything....
and i tell myself...you are not the one i used to love..you are nobody...
i would not like to know anything about you anymore...

God knows im soft hearted...
so,im like what i am as usual....
You went back to him...and both of you quarrel...
and you come back and tell us..this time you are serious...
No way to return to him...
Of course...i believe in you again...for the sake of being stupid again...
This happen for how many time? countless...cause i dont ever try to count....

Today, you told me you look for him again...
you did not lie this time...but you have break your promise..
not to return to that home...
I have no said...I m tired to hear about this...
you know exactly he is not the rightman...
Why are you so stubborn?

You are not the one i love previously...
Please do whatever you think it will make you happy...
I pray to God, please let you to have a good health and stay happy..
At least this is what i can do...

Being busy for my parents home renovation for the last two months..finally it almost come to the end..what is left is just the floor finishes, wall finishes and interior...and hopefully by end of this year we can move in...and now i got my job and have started to work..what is worrying me is the part I exam end of this year..i have to work to learn to know and to survive in this architorture route..

and now i just want to work, eat and sleep cause i know Cookie will never come back again...its been almost 3 weeks..we have no news on her...what we hope is just that to the one who has pick her please take care of her...we wish this little Cookie all the best...eventhou you cant move in to the new house with us...luckily we still have Curly with us..and sooner we will look for another Cookie again...

Have you ever think or plan what kind of architecture route you are going to take? I never thought of this until yesterday I received an e mail from the company that i applied for a job as design architect.( i cant let you guys know which company is that because i have not pass the interview yet...)
This is strange...it is so common if the company ask for port folio but they requested me to write about my long term plan..this question bugging me for the whole night..thinking what kind of architecture route that im planning to take..i have too many things that i want to do but i have never plan it properly on a paper...this has totally given me a chance to think think and think...and also because of this question, i feel more interested to know more about this company..
So, what is my planning??

first look for job..this is definately..im broke! from the day i decided to continue my bachelor in UTAS, i know my passion towards architecture is still there..burning!I like design, deeply in love..i want the user feel it, just like the church by Tadao Ando and the Jewish museum..the building is expressing! Feel it...you know what i mean??

of course my dream to be an architect! I will never give up...i have promised myself, no matter how long it takes, i will become an architect..this is why i sit for the part I exam..wish me good luck..yes, no matter how long, even one day if i have become some one mother..crossed my heart!

My architecture trip started from Hong Kong to Tibet, to Australia..These trips are wonderful..i learn t, experience and appreciate all of them..and i love it..i know one day later i will have chance to go further...as long as i have money to go....save money is hard....

Wish me all the best, friends!

I seldom drive to this place..yesterday i drive past..this place near pasar borong, Seri Kembangan..n i saw this scene, i know i have to take this photo down, but i regret why i did not take a shot on this little hill last time when i drive through...few years later, this little green hill will turn into a hypermarket...and maybe more development...

i feel really sad on this development..is this the only thing that we can do to make a place developed? I remember my lecturer told me once, he said, Susanne, try to work together with the nature, not against them...orelse, they will take it back from you in the future...I know what he says is right..look into our Malaysian way of constructing..we clear the land, build whatever we want and finally replant some trees to the site...and usually the replant number is far more lesser...and all these cause numerous of environment issue..

What is important between the nature and development? is there any fair weighing between them?seeking for the answer...

This is my first trip to Kota Bahru. It is not a big city like Kuala Lumpur, it is a small town with friendly people around. This is the place where we can find clear sky...

It was Wednesday morning i submitted my documents to University of Malaya. In the same day i receive 2 important calls. 1 is from UTM Space!! This man called, hi Susanne, we saw your last application saying that you would like to join in SPACE programme, the part 1, are you still interested..?? Do you know what i feel at that moment?? I feel bit angry but much on proud..telling him..You know what, I have completed my part 1 in UTAS just because you rejected my application previously, telling me that..huh..we are so sorry, we cannot take you in Susanne because you are from private college... What can i say?? big big disappointment....??

Just half an hour later, another call..this call is a nightmare...UM called!! When i picked up the phone i was so happy thinking everything will be alright..because its just an afternoon, they returned call...but it was not a good news...according to them, I have to go to LAM and ask for part 1 recognition letter.I though it will be very easy.... so, i said ok, not a problem...

The next morning, i went to LAM, and met this young lady. Oh, you are the lady who called yesterday asking about part 1 recognition..im so sorry because i forgot to tell you that we cant give you a recognise letter because you have to sit for the part 1 exam and the registration date has been closed 1 week ago... What???? this lady went off and leave me for 5 minutes, she came back and tell me that she has informed her manager and her manager allows me to sit for this exam if i can submit all the necessary documents in 2 days time...if i miss this exam i have to wait till next year because the exam only held once a year...

In the same day, i looked for my ex lecturer, Mr See! Thank god he is available in the evening and willing to endorse the documents for me...Thank you very very much....I submitted all the documents within the time frame...

My friends said im always that lucky..hopefully this time too....never give up in architecture as long as you have the passion....never never give up..

My friends always say that im a lucky person...how lucky am i this time??
I applied for a Master in Architecture in UM, thank you so much to my friend, Chelwin! She gave all the information to me, telling me where to go what to do...thank you very much, buddy! your helping hand is so much appreciated!

Now I have submitted whatever necessary..everything else has to depend on god!! Ask you pray more frequent..u ngi ngi ngam ngam....now sei lar...pray everyday..helpless..sigh...i think this is the reason why Brian, my friend pray so hard...even in Tassie..

I seriously hope that the application can be approve and i can continue my dream to be an architect..I want to be an architect!! no rush but still is a dream..A dream that i have been waited for 5 years..

Give me a chance, I promise to be a good architect...

early in the morning we went for Neway..it was a great day..we sing from 11 morning to 4 afternoon!!! I cant find this in Tasmania..this is why KL is the best!!!
After sing K session we were planning to go for a movie but then my sister fren gave her a call telling her that he got extra tickets for Eason concert tonight!!!!Wahaha..so shiok....without any consideration we confirm we need that ticket!! We want it...

Designing facade is a ig challenge for an architect. It can be a representation to the building function, a landmark for the tourist,a city image and perhaps a trend for architecture!

Here are some interesting facade in Melbourne. Check it out!

It's been a month i have came back from Tasmania.never rest a day in home..keep on working my parent's new house..None of my sister understand how difficult the work is..as if building up a house is just 5 working days..feeling upset and disappointed..

The site work is so much different from what i thought! Things never end up perfect..but fortune enough with the help of my dad and my darling, the progress is running fairly fast.. Targeting to move in end of this year..

I went to Winz this afternoon, the art shop i used to go last time..surprisingly, the shop is no longer in business,the owner of the shop passed away..everyone will be gone one day but just cant imagine that it happens so fast and so sudden..

Two months ago, i have made a trip to Sdyney, some of the places there are marvelous..one of them is the backpacker where i stayed..
The backpacker is basically a combination of two old buildings, located at king cross.




Let's have a look at the entrance..it is not the grand or the modern entrance that is inviting..is the colour and material combination makes the entrance feels more homely..





This is the corridor right after the backpackers entrance.with little rugs on the dark colour timber flooring makes the entire corridor looks so much fresher..especially the pendant light has definately enhance the entire corridor..



THe internet area is just right under the staircase...great idea of space usage..the backpackers registration desk is also similar to this..under the staircase..Love the idea so much..


The alley between two building is the laundry area. This alley fits so well for the laundry area, laundry area not necessary have to be a room with 4 sides of wall..as long as the machine is weather protected..I love the way the owner inject the function into a small area..no space wastage!!

To my surprise...our local council did good job!! they provide more job opportunities to their people...what job is tat???ten ten ten ten...which is putting up advertisement on the electric box, bus stop and taking off the advertisement...Is putting up these kind of advertisement part of art????
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How long more to take for the people here to be more civilize?? Don't they know that putting up all these advertisement will damage the city appearance?? What have our council did?? Supply labour to clean up the advertisement?

When I travel in Queensland, I found out that they have pretag the electric box..it promotes the city well..letting the tourist know what is well known in these area, educating art as well as making good the city image...What if the council do the same thing? will it able to stop the illegal advertising??

Remember!! No one likes dirty...